So mental health is hard to deal with, I struggle with Anxiety and Depression. I discovered having these last year, when I was going through a bad mental break – I had crying fits over just going out, seeing my other half families, even though I get on with them, if I went up high, like stairs to somewhere and was close to the edge of the side then I would think of suicide and that I wanted to jump.. I knew something was mentally going wrong for me and decided to go to the doctors and with all the feelings and my emotions they confirmed that I had anxiety and depression and put me on some medication, I went on 50mg of Sertraline but it helped a little but not enough and now I am on 100mg of Sertraline, it has helped but it does take a while to kick in, for me anyway! as everyone copes differently with medication, I still get bad moments which everyone does, but I still call into work sick because I’m too anxious to go in and that’s okay, it’s okay to have mental health days but you have to make sure to go in for the next time your at work, I worry about everything.. and no joke everything.. even writing this post I worry about!
I’m slowly starting to come out of my comfort zone and trying new things, I won’t say how I worked myself up to do this, as everyone is different and will get to a stage where they can slowly do stuff that they get anxious about but it just depends on you. I think the hardest thing is knowing that it is silly and that you shouldn’t be worrying about it but you just can’t help it, it becomes all you know and what you feel comfortable with.
If anyone would like to be brave enough to share their story then I’m happy to listen and being someone to listen to.
This post probably makes no sense but nevermind, I think I just wanted to write about keep fighting the mental health, you can do it, talk to doctors, your friends and family! Don’t keep it in, as I use to do that and now I don’t as much and it has become healthier for myself.
Thanks for reading!
Lots of love MeggyMoo xxx